So it is my 27th birthday today. Like most women I am not afraid to admit my age, it is just a number and I really don't care what people think...I look 20 anyways. This particular birthday is very bittersweet, it is the first without my mom. You could say it has been somewhat of a "blah" day, and I have just been going through the motions. I feel so empty without her. I remember one year she forgot my birthday and I was so upset. How could a mother forget her first child's birthday? I would give anything for her to be here today and forget. They say it only gets better with time, I hope they are right because the hurt sucks right now. But I will suck it up and be happy because I know she would want me too. I love you mama, and one day we will meet again, but until then give me the strength to go on in life without you. I know I have it in me, it is just finding the strength is the problem. On a happy note I want to leave you with one of my favorite pictures of the two of us, months after I was brought into this world. Happy birthday to me!
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